Verdict??...

Exactly as i expected. Nothing more. Nothing less.

Yesterday was rather bitter sweet. I couldn't bring myself to write after it all yesterday and today is a new day with a new future!

I can only talk about the outcome. Nothing in between.

Outcome:
* Full parental responsibility to me
* Only to contact (insert name here) in case of a major medical emergency
* (Insert name here) will contact me if he wants to see the boys

I tried. I gave options. Final decision was not mine. I guess you can paint that picture yourself. It was a picture I had already painted five months ago.. Actually well before that.

Now... We can move on. Without anything holding us back. The boys will be given every opportunity to live a life full of love and happiness.. Ill be making sure I do everything in my power to ensure that.

Lachlan already knew this was coming. Unbeknown to me. Jesse was "babbling" "Daddaddad" the other night.. And for the first time without any prompting or reminding from me L turned to J and said "No.. no no, no Daddad. All gone. Dad all gone". This is all I've ever told him and jJ. The only words I've ever said. And for the first time before a decision was made.. He already knew. He recognizes his "Father" in pictures.. J wouldn't have any idea who he is.

The new path starts now. Finality was given yesterday. Guilt is a terrible thing to live with. I'm glad it's not me.

TNT

A xxx